Humbled by LOVE

The past month or so I have been having an overwhelming feeling of humility. How am I so blessed? I don't deserve to have the sweet kids I do or the greatest husband/father of my kids?  I don't feel like I have earned them in any way! I am A VERY imperfect person yet the Lord has blessed me with the most ideal family for me. I have learned so many lessons from my children and husband and I don't feel like I am giving anything back. I am stealing all of the lessons from them. What I am to offer to two amazing children and the most patient husband? I feel like such a selfish person to be so blessed with the family I have. I thank Heavenly Father every day for all that he has given me unconditionally. 

The lessons I get to learn from my children are the most pure and simple lessons.

Braxton teaches me EVERY MINUTE of EVERY DAY! A lot of those lessons are very hard to learn and we are both learning how to communicate with each other. We have our difficult days for sure where things just aren't clicking. I am realizing that those are the days where I am not willing to sit him on my lap and really listen to the things he needs. But, even though I am still working and learning to be the mom to the most special little spirit, he still loves me unconditionally! How is that possible? Some days I make him very mad or sad because I still have to teach him lessons he doesn't want to learn or can't yet understand why he has to learn them. Yet, despite my weaknesses and misunderstandings...HE STILL LOVES ME. He still wants to wrestle with me on the floor. He still wants me to hold him on my lap and wants to look me in the eyes and rub noses. He is my little buddy.

LOVE these two!

 Then there is my sweet yet very sassy Millie. She is a spit fire and we have our own difficulties. She is a very independent girl and wants to do things her way. Sometimes she is able to do those things but other times, because she isn't even one yet, has to learn to let me do things for her. She is very smart and helps Braxton learn many things I cannot teach him. I learn from her how to be patient and to empathize. It is still a work in progress because every day poses new challenges but she, despite me having to say no to her on a regular basis, still wants me to hold her when she is sad, still wants to play and laugh, still wants to dance and eat snacks with me. She still loves me! How do I deserve that? How do I deserve to be forgiven of my shortcomings in an instant? It's amazing all the lessons I am learning from my children! I feel like I can't repay them enough for the daily lessons they are providing for me. 

My amazing and wonderful husband teaches me to persevere. He teaches me to work hard and even if you feel like it's too hard, you still do it. You don't complain, you do and the Lord will provide the rest. He does so much for our little family and is gone a lot of the time but he still finds time in his schedule to be with us and help out. He will have had the most grueling week and will still wake up with the kids if he can tell I am just so tired. He is always giving and I don't feel like I am giving enough back and again he still loves me!

What an amazing lesson to be learning from the people I love the most. Love isn't conditional (if it is then it isn't love). Love is the one thing that always forgives, that always teaches, that always provides the way. 

The savior gave his life for all of us because he LOVED us. There was no other reason. He loved us so much that he would suffer on our behalf so that we could return to live with him one day. The most unselfish act.

I will always fall short of perfection here on this earth and will always have things I need to work on but I can always love those around me unconditionally. I am so thankful that I have people who love me unconditionally and will teach me the lessons I need to learn to get that much closer to the ultimate goal.